When life is messy
I don't relate at all to those "picture perfect" posts I see on social media. My life is messy. Oh, my home is clean! But life itself is messy. There are spiritual battles daily. There seems to be little respite some days. There are surprise attacks from the enemy. I get blind-sided. Then I beat myself up for not responding in the Spirit. I take on way more than I should and I struggle with keeping a good attitude. It's easy for me to have pity parties, and just give in to discouragement. Why can't I just do something about my messes, you may ask? God. That's the short answer. Oh believe me, I have tried. I pray, fast, cry out to God, stand on His promises. But since my life is not my own - hasn't been for over 30 years now - but belongs to Christ, I don't call the shots. He does. This means that my life, with all of its messiness, is panning out exactly as Christ has ordained. And no matter how hard it may be for me, He is Lord over all of i