Stop, Jesus! You're crushing me!
Have you ever been crushed by Jesus? Job said, "Though He slay me, yet I will trust Him." Been there, too, Job. But crushing feels worse than slaying. What on earth am I talking about, you may wonder! God is not a sadist! Indeed not. I don't know if you are this way, but a lot of the time, I need to talk to know what I'm thinking! Sometimes, as I'm talking to a pastor, a friend, or whomever, words just come out of me that I had no intention of saying. It's like the Holy Spirit is getting out of me what is really going on in me and I didn't have a chance to verbalize it before. Writing is a great outlet for me. But sometimes, it's speaking those unexpected words that sheds light on my circumstances. For example, I was talking to a pastor about a certain situation I am in that is very hard to endure, and the word "crushed" popped out of my mouth. I don't remember exactly what I said, but remember saying how I felt like I was bein...