Always You

 

Day 3!  So I sat down at my Yamaha P250 today to sing this song and memories started flooding back to me.  Memories of the time we went to a professional recording studio outside of DC with hopes of recording my first full-length album.

God had other plans.

So we were able to lay down some of the tracks.  But after the first day of recording, my husband and I went out to dinner.  It was a nice restaurant and I ordered the veal.  I never order veal.  Whatever possessed me to order veal that night, the Lord only knows!

I ended up getting food poisoning.

I was unable to go back to the studio to record.  Instead, I spent the next day crawling to the bathroom to vomit my guts out.  It was a nightmare.  I couldn't even walk, I was that weakened by it.  It was the first time in my life when I actually thought that I might die.

I remember thinking, ok, Lord - if You're ready for me, if today's my day to die, I'm ok with that!  

I didn't read too much into at the time - why the one and only time I experienced food poisoning happened when I was scheduled to record my first album.  But looking back, it makes me wonder if it was a vicious spiritual attack from the enemy preventing me from recording my album, or if it was God's way of saying, No.  Not yet.  

Either way, God is Sovereign and the recording was not happening!

Did you ever step out in faith to do something for God and you were prevented in one way or another?  How did you handle it?  Did it tamper with your trust in God?

The recording was never released.  We didn't have the funds to continue with the project.  

Was I disheartened by the whole thing?  I don't remember being bummed.  I was just thankful to still be alive at the end of the thing!  And I met some great musicians who played on one of my concerts, so it wasn't a total loss.  

Anyway, if I had to glean a lesson from this I guess it would be that though our end results may not come to fruition as we'd hoped, trust that the Lord knows best and has an even better plan.  In my case, a few years later we were able to record a 4-song EP in Los Angeles!  Far better, for sure.  But even that experience was not without its troubles.  More on that in another blog!

Dear Lord, thank You for preserving my life that time I had food poisoning!  Thank You for always acting in my best interest, even when I experience awful things.  Thank You for already being in the future and knowing what is best for me, and having better plans for me than I could ever have for myself.  Your timing is perfect, Lord!  In Jesus' Name.  Amen.